Tuesday night...cont..

Today has been a really bad day. Got a phone call at work that Hailey quit breathing and they called 911 while Jenny did cpr. They finally got her to beathe again. Then on the way to the hospital she again quit breathing. I sure hope and pray that everything turn out well for little Hailey Jo.
On top of all that when I got home from work today I could not find Molly (My cat) I looked high and low for her when I finally found her under my bed. I tried to coax her out but she would not move...then when I realized that my cat of almost 14 died. She was such a good cat. She always sensed when I was upset and would come for a cuddle. When I got sick with my Kidney problems....I felt she knew I was sick and layed low....I picture now in Heaven chasing a HUGE tin foil ball, oh how she loved a foil ball more than any store bought toy I ever gave her. Marilyn came over and helped my bury her behind the apartment. Molly gave this person more smiles than any other pet I had. I will miss her so.

Tuesday(305-234-79)

Well..its back to work this morning after a long needed vacation. At least its a short work week, just working today and then Thursday, and Friday as tommorrow is Matthews graduation from kindergarden. Its hard to believe that he was even old enough to go to school this year. He was too cute for words yesterday, he called me up and asked me to come over and pick up some toys. I asked him why he was giving me some of his toys, his reply came back that he was going to need something to do when he came over this summer. LOL I know I can go and on ad on about both the kids but they are adorable.

My 2 grand neices are doing a bit better. Hannah is not on the alarm any more. Hailey still is, they are still invitigating why she keeps setting it off. Their Momma Jenny looks so tired. I continue to pray for their safety and well being.

Sunday(303-232-77)

Mom and Dad made it home from Alaska ok. They LOVED the trip, except that they both came home with bad colds. It was nice to talk to them and listen to everything....I also "clued" in Mom on the whole Kumud ordeal. She seems to think that I am handling the whole situation very well. Still makes me wonder though. I mean what would Jesus do in the same situation? I know I should forgive her for everything, and I have but I should not be expected to pretend that nothing ever happened, which is what I think she wants to do.

Vacation for me is almost over. Tommorrow is my last day off till Wednesday....lol I took the day of Matthew's graduation from kindergarden off so I could go watch it. Then its back to work like normal. I think I have another week coming up pretty quickly though....

Cantored for Mass this morning. It went pretty well. I wish I had been more sure of the offering song. Anna said it sounded good, but I thought it was a bit shakey....

Thursday(300-229-74)

Not much happened today, except another relaxing vacation day. Went to cantor practice and learned a new song to teach the congregation on Sunday morning. Tommorrow I am going on a feild trip with Matthews class to a park. Lets hope the rain hold off.

Wednesday(299-228-73)

This vacation has been very relaxing for me. Boy did I need this. Today we went and saw the new Star Wars movie. WOW is all I can say...The movie is very DARK and SAD but the story needed to be told. The forces of good and evil are in all us....let just hope we all choose the "yoda" way.

Tuesday(298-227-72)

I talked with Jenny Joshi earlier. I guess her mom made it to town and is somewhere in Rockford. I gave her my side of the story with her mom calling me last night, I also told her that if she had any problems to give me a call, but to first call the police if she felt she needed to do so.
I don't know if I am being to harsh with this whole situation but I feel I am doing the right thing. In my heart of hearts I know that the Lord would want me to forgive Kumud for everything that she has done, and I think I have, but I don't think I need to be part of this relationship any longer.

Monday(297-226-71)

First day of vacation was ok....spent all of the day with Mer and Em....helped her out while she went to go count money at church. Took a nap with Emily and while we were napping Jenny called. I guess Hailey is doing worse. They let her come home this weekend but she is still on all kinds of monitors. They also said that she has had some bleeding in the brain. They are not too sure what might of caused this weather it was the tramatic birth she had or something else. They are also not too sure on weather this will delay her developmental progress or not so its a wait and see situation. I do hope and pray everything work out ok for this Grand Neice of mine.

Ok...adding more after a phone call at 10:30pm. Well...Kumud called from Chicago. She was wondering where I was. I let her have it. I told her that she found her way out of Michigan and to India that she could find her own way back home again. SHe tried to say why was I acting this way when she thought I was her best friend and all. I told her NOT to pull that shit on me that if she thought she was my best friend where was she when my family member died...where was she when my heart was broken into a million pieces...where was she when my neices were born??? I am not letting her do that to me. She asked if I had talked to Raja and Jenny and I said well of course I had....she then claimed that is where I was getting my attitude...I told her to Hell with that. I told her BEFORE I called Raja that she needed to find her own way home that I was not willing or able to pick her up in Chicago.....I do feel sort of like a shit for acting this way...but I feel that this is the best way to handle the situation.

Sunday(296-225-70)

I guess I was in too much of a hurry Friday to start vacation to leave a post, so I guess I will have to leave it now.

Friday flew by FAST!!!! I was sure happy about that. After work I Friday I went over to Marilyns and helped her packed and then we took off for out little get-a-way weekend. All in all in was a fun time I just wished I had a bit more cash so i could of enjoed it without the finincail burden of the whole thing. We did have a blast though. Friday night we had a nice dinner at a Asian Resturant and then we took off to WALMART....LOL I know it a swear word to me but hey we had a RIOT. Sat morning after sleeping in we had a late breakfast and then went to a ton of garage sales....found lots of cute stuff for the kids....then where do you think we went....WE HEADED BACK TO WALMART ROFL this time to get hair cuts and of all things to get our eyebrows waxed.....who knew that walmart would have a salon right in the store....I did get alot of my hair cut off....I think it looks cute....Sunday was spent drinking.... and more drinking... and a little more drinking.....no.....I did not get drunk...just a bit happy...When I got home on SUnday there was a message from Raja to give him a call, so I called him and updated him with what I knew about his ex-wife Kumud....and NO I AM NOT PICKING HER UP FROM THE AIRPORT(Thats another story...YIKES) well thats all for know.... let see how many times I remember to blogg while I am on vacation.

Thursday(293-222-67)

Well 3 days down 2 to go....YEA!!!

Yesterday was inventory. It went as well as could be expected. The good thing was that we were not short at all but were OVER!! Which is a good thing.

Marilyn also called yesterday. Looks like between now and Oct. I am going to have to save at least 300 bucks to contribute to Moms and Dads 50th anniversary party. I think that sounds like alot of money being that there is 7 of us throwing the party, maybe we could investigate someplace cheeper to have the affair.

Wednesday(292-221-66)

Well 2 days down 3 more to go till vacation. Today is year end inventory for Jewlery. I spent most of yesterday prepping and all I have left to do this morning is to pull the ring tags on a few cases. Yesterday Sunny came to all of us and told us we all won a sales contest, so I came home with a extra 30 bucks....I know its not alot but hey 30 bucks is 30 buks!!!!

Tuesday(291-220-65)

1 day down, only 4 more left to go. Yesterday flew by so fast. I got almost halfway done with the chnageover with the watch sections. Now I just need to finish it. Maybe I can do that today as long as we do not have any more sick calls.

Baby Hailey is not doing well. They think she has a virus that is causing her to have sleep apnea. It look like she will be in the hospital for at least another week or so. Hannah on the other hand is home and doing very well.

Monday(290-219-64)

Not a whole lot of sleep last night. Things keep mulling over in my mind. I am not going to get into details here, but mostly it was about health...mental and phyicall. (I SOMETIMES HATE MY KIDNEYS)

I did get up in enough time to go biking for 5 miles. I hate sometimes getting up early to do it, but I know my body wants,needs, and deserves it.

Sunday(289-218-63)

Well today was the last sunday for singing with the choir untill next fall. We sounded really good. I will miss singing every sunday, but I will not miss the practices....it is gonna be nice to have thursday nights to myself for awhile.

This week in work I just have to get through 5 days then I am off on vacation. I can hardly wait.

On a weirder note, there was another message for me on my answering machine today from Kumud. She is under the impression that I am going to Chiacago to pick her up from the airport. I AM NOT!!!! I think Mom and Dad are right and I should stay as far away from her as possible.

Friday(287-216-61)

YEA!!!!!! TGIF!!!!! 1 more week till vacation!

I went and saw the twins last night. Hannah and Hailey are so cute....I think they look alot like Jerry and a little of Jenny. Hannah slept the whole time we were there. Hailey was a little bit more "fussy"..not crying at all just moving around. Jenny said that she does not like the IV in her...They both have IVS as their blood sugars have not risen since their birth. Jenny is coming home today, but it looks like the twins are going to need a bit more care till they can come home.

Thursday(286-215-60)

Well...its officail. I am a great Aunt. Jenny had her babies yesterday. Hahhah Michelle was born at 5:33pm weighing 5lbs 4 oz and 17in. Her twin sister Haley Jo arrived at 6:oopm weighing 5lbs 11oz and 18in. Mother and babies are doing fine. Apparently Haley was born with the cord wrapped around her neck, but her APGAR Rating went from 5 to 8 in 10 mins and the doctors said there was nothing to worry about. Will be going to see the babies today after work. :)

Wednesday(285-214-59)

Hey baby, is that you?Wow, your hair got so long.Yeah, yeah, I love it, I really do."Norma Jean", ain't that the song we'd sing in the carDriving downtown, top down, making the rounds Checking out the bands on Doheny Avenue. Yeah, life throws you curves, But you've learned to swerve, Me, I swung and I missed, And the next thing ya know, I'm reminicing...Dreaming old dreams, wishing old wishes, Like you would be back again.I wake up and tear drops they fall down like rain, I put on that old song we danced to and then, I head off to my job, I guess not much has changed,Punch the clock, head for home, Check the phone, just in case, Go to bed, dream of you, That's what I'm doin' these days.Yeah that's what I'm doin'Someone told me, after college, you ran off to Vegas, You married a rodeo cowboy, WowThat ain't the girl I knew, Me, I've been a few places, Mostly here and there once or twice, Still sortin' out life, but I'm doin all right, Yeah, it's good to see you, too.Well, hey girl your late, and those planes they don't wait, But if you ever come back around this sleepy old town, Promise me you'll stop in, to see an old friend, And until thenI wake up and tear drops they fall down like rain, I put on that old song we danced to and then, I head off to my job, guess not much has changed,Punch the clock, head for home,Check the phone, just in case, Go to bed, dream of you, That's what I'm doin' these...I wake up and tear drops they fall down like rain, I put on that old song we danced to and then, I head off to my job, guess not much has changed,Punch the clock, head for home,Check the phone, just in case, Go to bed, dream of you, That's what I'm doin' these...I wake up and tear drops they fall down like rain, I put on that old song we danced to and then,I wake up and tear drops that fall down like rain,I put on that old song we danced to and then,I wake up and tear drops they fall down like rain,I put on that old song we danced to and then.



That song has been going through my mind alot lately, so I decided to post the lyrics here.

I got alot ready for inventory yesterday. Will be taking care of alot more today. :)

Tuesday(284-213-58)

Up and awake this morning after a fairly good nights sleep. Yesterday at work I talked with Chris A for a bit and he re-assured me that the changes coming to the Jewelry counter will be good. I need not worry about changing of my hours etc..and If I need anything that he would help me out. He is such a good man to work for.

Monday(283-212-57)

Boy, I am sure not used to working Saturdays. I was exhausted when I got home. Yesterday I spent most of the day with Marilyn. We went down to see Mom for mothers day. She and I are still sort of upset with mom. I guess has her "Priorities" and we were not it. I can at least let go with that but I think Mer got really upset. We left Moms about 3ish and then since we did not have the kids with us we took ourselves out for dinner. Had a nice meal and when we got home we had a chance to talk for a bit before Mike brought the kids home from his Moms house.

I think its going to be a busy day today cleaning up the Jewlery dept. Sunny is on vacation this week and then next week we have year end inventory. THEN its my turn. I get to go on vacation the week after that. :)

Saturday(281-210-55)

Yesterday flew by very fast. Sunny and I were busy most of the day. I think I am safe in assuming that its going to be the same way today. I am so tired. Did not get too much sleep last night. I've was up alot of the night thinking about my job..life..relationships...Yadaa yadaa yadaa.....

Friday(280-209-54)

Strange dreams last night. I guess thats what happens when you go to bed watching the X-files. I got my season 1 of the X-files yesterday. I was suprised that it came so quickly. I am going to have to orer from e-bay again. It was alot cheaper than trying to locate the seasons here at regular retail stores.

Thursday cont. (279-208-53)

Well...its official. I will be transfering to a new area. The good thing is that I will still be in Jewlery. The BAD thing is that not only am I loosing a very good boss, the person I am getting is a "goof" and her boss is a LUNATIC!!!! I really might have a hard time adjusting to these changes. My hope is that they do not play with my hours and keep me Monday-Friday 6:30 to 3:00pm. I hope and pray that they will not make me work weekends. Now SUnny says that this change will not happen for a long time but my new boss says that it will happen before the end of the month. I really just need to keep a postive mind and spirit and pray that things work out for the best.

Thursday(279-208-53)

Very busy day yesterday. Sold alot of Jewlery. Going to talk to Sunny today about transferring. I really don;t want to but I don't see any other choice.

Me and Emily 

Wednesday(278-207-52)

I fell asleep last night thinking about people. Wondering how they were,what they were doing. I can't seem to understand why they do some of the things that they do.

I was very busy at work yesterday. There was alot of stuff to put away. Just as I got caught up on it all they delivered another batch just before I wnet home so I will be BUSIER today. lol I guess its better to be busy than not to have any custermers at all.

Tuesday(277-206-51)

I am going to have a lot to do today. I know as sure as I am sitting here that not much got done in Jewelry yesterday at all. I am not blaming Sunny at all for it, I jusy wish that DAWN would learn to help out once in awhile. It always seems that I am helping our her, isn't turn around fair paly?

Sunday(275-204-49)

"You Catholics are so rude" That is what was said to me one day at work not too long ago. I had invited a friend of mine that was non-Catholic to come and enjoy our Easter celebration. I knew she was searching for a church to belong to and she had known I was Catholic and she had been asking some question about Catholics and the way we celebrate our Lord Jesus Christ, so I invited her to join us for Easter Sunday Mass. I had to sing in the choir so I could not sit with her but I made sure there was someone there that she knew and felt comfortable with so I asked a fellow co-worker and church member to sit with her. The co-worker and myself were the only one that seemed to welcome her. She says she got "looks" from other people when she was not kneeling when the others knelt and when it came time for the handshake of peace she said it almost felt that they were trying to advoid her..like she was a nusence becasue she was non-catholic. The icing on the cake came when she noticed that people were leaving right after communion. She said NONONE would ever DREAM of doing that in the church that she belonged to before....she said that everyone waited untill the minister sang the final note of the closing song and then they left if they wanted too but most stayed for more fellowship with others. I took what she said to heart and I started looking inward to myself and then looking out to the parish as a whole. Do I only come to church to fullfill a Sunday obligation or am I at Mass to give my all to the glory of the Lord? I noticed that more people it seems to be showing up late and leaving early....Why is that we find it so hard to commit 1 hour to the Lord each week? Jesus suffred on the cross for more that 3 hours for us. Giving up his life so that we could enjoy eternal life forever.....and still we find it too hard to commit 1 hour to the Lord.

My final thought is that I am going to try my best not to be that Rude Catholic that she saw, but try to be the hands, feet, eyes, heart, and voice of that truly living and risen Chirst to all people....Not just to some.