Wednesday 1yr. 33

Lately it seems like I feel depressed. Why exercise? Its not like you have a boyfriend who cares what you look like....Why go out only to face rejection? Why not just stay at home where the only thing that can hurt me is myself? Sometimes I wonder why I even get up in the morning....Ugg I hate feeling like this.

Tuesday 1yr.32

Man...Yesterday flew by very fast. I had a lot of work waiting for me when I came back. I still have a lot of work waiting for me today. Last night went over to Mikes and Mers for dinner. We had made a turkey and all the trimmings and it was FABULOUS! I came home with a big continuer of leftovers. Planning on not doing anything after work today except maybe biking some more.

Monday 1yr. 31

I am really not looking forward to gong back to work this morning. When my alarm went off I wanted to turn it off and crawl right back into bed, but I did not...I got up and biked 7 miles and now I am trying to re-coup so I can get enough energy to get some clothes on and go to work...

Yesterday Marilyn and I canned 8 quarts of peaches........Talk about a lot of work doing that!!!! We also made Mountain Dew Jam.....ROFL it is WEIRD!!!! Tastes lot a LOT of sugar and a bit like Mountain dew....I don't think it is something that I would ever make again. Well I am off to go to work.

Sunday 1yr. 30

I cannot seem to wake up this morning. I have to be in church in less than 1 hour and I am still sitting here in my pjs yawning and streching. I guess I don't want today to begin as it my LAST day of vacation for a bit. Oh well such is life.

Saturday 1yr.29

Had such a busy day yesterday. I don't think I worked so hard on vacation ever!!! In a way it was fun but very hetic. Delt with the police coming to the school to train crossing guards and little girl falling on playground and getting hurt...to a boy who has sissors in the lunchroom trying to cut someones hair...YIKES

Friday 1yr. 28

Went with Marilyn to bring Matthew to his first new day of school and I wound up working there for today and yesterday. Apparently the new school secretary does not start until Monday and the Principal asked me if I could fill in for 2 days. Had a blast yesterday doing it so today I am up early and both Mer and I are going to do it.

Thursday 1yr 27

Went to bed LATE last night and now I am up early. Matthews' first day of the 1st grade is today. I can hardly believe that he is almost 6 years old. It seems like just yesterday. He is so excited, because he HAS to wear a uniform and EVERYTHING. lol More later.

Wednesday 1yr. 26

Slept in this morning. That is something I miss having to get up early every morning.

The twins were so good yesterday. They are both growing up so fast. :)

Tuesday 1yr. 25

Had a good time last night at Moms and Dads anniversary party. Its hard to believe that they are celebrating 50 years.

Got up a bit early this morning and went on my normal bike ride. Even though I am on vacation I thought I would still try to keep up with the riding. Today I will be babysitting the twins. Boy are they growing!!!!

Monday 1yr 24

Another strange night for dreams. This time I remembered both of them. The first dreams was that Kumud was back in town and she was trying as hard as she could to have me murdered. I kept telling Raja what she was doing and he would not believe me. This dream seemed to last all night, Just before I woke up I had another dream. This one was that I was down in South Bend helping Matt and my car refused to work. I was so fustrated in this dream.....

Today I am on vacation. I will be going down to Moms and Dads for a anniversary party. It is amazing to think that they will be 50 years. One time I thought that kind of love was out there for me but more and more lately I am thinking that it is not.

Sunday 1yr. 23

Got up fairly early this morning. I was having another strange dream. Something about having my kidney taken out of me and they found an alien lifeform behing it. LOL I have to stop watching the X-files before I go to bed....LOL thats another big laugh...When would I ever stop watching the X-files? MMMMmmmmMMMMM Mulder LOL

Saturday 1yr. 22

I did spend the night last night with Matthew and Emily. Mike and Mer went out and we stayed home and watch out favorite movie.."The Princess Bride" I woke up this morning with Emily staring at me in the face....She is too cute for words sometimes. After a HUGE breakfast(I ate too much) I came home and biked for 8.5 miles on my bike and burned off 550 calories...I think I addicted to bike riding...lol Today after I shower I am supposed to be heading back to their place so we can all go to Mass together. That's all I have for today :)

Friday 1yr 21

I decided to change the title of each entry now, it got to be too many numbers to remember, so I am just going with my first series of number...What those number mean???That's for me to know.

Vacation starts today after work. Matthew is already asking me to come spend the night with him in the tent so I think I am going to have to do that. :)

Thursday(1yr 20-313-159)

Only 2 more work days then I am on vacation again. YEA.. Went and saw the kids last night. I swear Matthew is getting taller by the minute. We had a great time playing with the rockets that Marilyn got them.

Marilyn and I listened to a song last night and for some reasons the lyrics keep going though my head so I am posting them here.

I'm trying to tell you something about my lifeMaybe give me insight between black and whiteThe best thing you've ever done for meIs to help me take my life less seriously, it's only life after allWell darkness has a hunger that's insatiableAnd lightness has a call that's hard to hearI wrap my fear around me like a blanketI sailed my ship of safety till I sank it, I'm crawling on your shore.
I went to the doctor, I went to the mountainsI looked to the children, I drank from the fountainThere's more than one answer to these questionspointing me in crooked lineThe less I seek my source for some definitiveThe closer I am to fine.
I went to see the doctor of philosophyWith a poster of Rasputin and a beard down to his kneeHe never did marry or see a B-grade movieHe graded my performance, he said he could see through meI spent four years prostrate to the higher mind, got my paperAnd I was free.
I went to the doctor, I went to the mountainsI looked to the children, I drank from the fountainThere's more than one answer to these questionspointing me in crooked lineThe less I seek my source for some definitiveThe closer I am to fine.
I stopped by the bar at 3 a.m.To seek solace in a bottle or possibly a friendI woke up with a headache like my head against a boardTwice as cloudy as I'd been the night beforeI went in seeking clarity.
I went to the doctor, I went to the mountainsI looked to the children, I drank from the fountainThere's more than one answer to these questionspointing me in crooked lineThe less I seek my source for some definitiveThe closer I am to fine.
I went to the doctor, I went to the mountainsI looked to the children, I drank from the fountainThere's more than one answer to these questionspointing me in crooked lineThe less I seek my source for some definitiveThe closer I am to fine.
We go to the bible, we go through the workoutWe read up on revival and we stand up for the lookoutThere's more than one answer to these questionspointing me in a crooked lineThe less I seek my source for some definitiveThe closer I am to fineThe closer I am to fineThe closer I am to fine

Wednesday(Iy-19-312-158)

I went to bed last night not very happy with myself. Apprently I said something to one of the chatters in Mares' group and they really took offence to it. This person had been a chatter for a long time in the group and she said what I told her really hurt so she removed herself from the group. I tried to aplogize but she said what is done is done. Uggg I really should learn to think before I speak.

Sometimes I am just a idiot!

Tuesday(Iy-18-311-157)

Another day begins. Slept fairly well last night. Went to bed around 10 and slept soundly till my alarm went off at 4.

Yesterday flew by very fast. I found out that even though I was right next to someone who had contracted menigitis I really have no chance of getting it. Lets hope so :)

I also hope today flies by as fast as yesterday did.

Monday(Iy-17-310-156)

Has such a hard time falling asleep last night. Once again my mind was on something other than sleeping. I finally wound up taking my Rosary that Pedro made for me and I think I prayed it at least 2 times trying to get some peace of mind. I think talking with Jeff this weekend made me start thinking all over again about my life..my loves...and the lack theirof now. Jeff seemes to be doing well, allthough he did seem to wonder how the "cat" was other than how he and I are both handling this breakup....typical guy I guess....allthough our relationshio was not a real typical thing....but alas I digress again.

I so want to talk to Pedro again. Just to let him know that I still care for him very much as a friend and I miss our talks on philosophy etc...he really made me stop and think somtimes and I miss that.

Sunday(Iy-16-309-155)

So guess what?....I have been exposed to menigitis. One of the girl I work with was hospitliazed with it yesterday. I guess it not the serious type but it can make you feel pretty ill. I sure hope I do not get sick. I HATE DOCTORS AND HOSPITALS!!!!

Saturday(Iy-15-308-154)

Got up early this morning. I went to Meijer to get some of the items that are on the Super Sat. sale....lol I got spotted in the store now I am going back in to work some overtime. The cash is gonna be SWEET!!!!

Friday(Iy-14-307-153)

TGIF...so happy its Friday here. Again last night I slept SOUNDLY. I went to bed right after BB6 and did not wake up till almost 4am!!!

Biked my 6.5 miles this morning, will try to bike some more when I get home today.

Thursday(Iy-13-306-152)

For the first time in a long time last night, I got a good nights sleep. I think I was bed and sleeping before 10:00pm and I never woke up until my alarm went off at 4:00am.

Yesterday morning when I left for work I realalized that someone stole my bike out of my storage place. I was pretty miffed but how far could they go with 2 flat tires on it. Then when I went to go start my car I looked up and saw that the screen door to my patio was wide open!!!! It looks as someone tried getting in but when they saw my glass door was locked they left. To say the least I was a tad shaken. I was going to call the police when I came home from work but ...guess what.......I found my bike thrown in the weeds back behind the parking lot. To say the least I am going to keep this glass door locked and shut at all times now!!!!

Wednesday(Iy-12-305-151)

Feeling somewhat better this morning. My head is still hurting but nothing like it was yesterday.
I woke up a bit early this morning to people fighting in the parking lot.....Yikes can't they find something better to do at 3:30 in the morning? I was close to calling the police when I realized that they were "play" fighting!!!! Thats when I got pissed and hollared out my bedroom window for them to SHUT UP!!
I've been trying to spend more time in the Catholic chat room. With everything that has been going on in my life lately this place seems to bring my spirit an uplifting time. Well I had better "blog" off so I can go get ready for work.

Tuesday(Iy-11-304-150)

I really feel like crap this morning so I stayed home from work. My head is killing me and I feel like I could be sick at any moment. It almost feels like a hangover but I have had nothing to drink,

Monday(Iy-10-303-149)

Lots of thoughts going around in my head this morning...but once again I will push these to the back of my mind and try to get through another day.

Up and awake this morning and also biked for the entire 6.5 miles this time without stopping. I am going to have a lot to do this morning at work. I now that there is at least 2 jewelry deliveries that need to be taken care of. There is also the new display that I need to get out and ship the old one back.

Yesterday I went with Pat to get our picture taken for the new parish directory. UGGGG I hate having my picture taken...Just reminds me how ugly I really am. Pat is trying to talk me into going out with Friday night to the bar to meet some guys. I think I am a bit old for that scene, but we will see it might be just the shot in the arm I need.

Saturday(Iy-8-301-147

I must be in a X-files mood today. Oh How I LOVE that show. I have almost every season on DVD and I think I have watched them all at least a million times. My bedroom is also turing into some sort of "shrine" to the X-files. I have my X-files wallclock....My X-files "I want to Believe" poster...and of course my DVDs and numerous books. I still have to take my X-files watch to the Jeweler to have some links taken out of the band. I was going to send it to a certain someone but I think I my keep it for myself.

Friday(Iy-7-300-146)

Yea.....TGIF :) I did not want to ride my bike this morning at all but guess what....I DID!!!! I just got to keep on keeping on.

No really big plans for the weekend. I was supposed to cantor for a mass on Sunday but now I am doing all 3 masses next Sunday. Not much else going on unless you call putting together a futon couch big plans...LOL

Thursday(Iy-6-299-145)

Up and awake this morning. Last night I fell alseep right away. Not like the previous night at all.

I still have alot to do to help out in fashions today but I need to finish on working and inventoring the diamonds,

Wednesday(Iy-5-298-144)

I had such a hard time falling asleep last night. I kept thinking about how things use to be and how I so wanted them to be back like they were before. I did alot of praying and soul searching. I need to trust in Gods plan for me and not try to "change" what he is doing in my life. I need to continue to pray that Gods will be done...not mine.

Tuesday(Iy-4-297-143)

Up and awake this morning. I went 7 miles on the bike in about 30 mins. When I came home from work yesterday I also biked 6 miles. WIth all this exercise you would think I would see more of a result. I think I have hit a platoe but I will keep plugging along. Maybe I should stop eating again, that was a quick way to get some pounds off. :P

Monday(Iy-3-296-142)

Up and awake...and got all the bike riding in this morning. Its going to be a LONG week at work. There are alot of price changes to do in the fashion area and I still need to take the tests for the fashion area.