Sunday 1 yr 142

Have you ever felt that the life you once had seems to be slipping away and you cannot get a grasp on anything? I have felt that way lately. Everything I once found to bring me some joy now only brings me sorrow. My life seems to be heading in a direction that I do not want it to go and I can't seem to do anything about it. The only 2 things that really seem to keep me going lately are of course The "kids" and my love of music. It seems in music it is the only place I can escape to where things make sense and I am at peace. I am sick and tired of being sick. I it seems sometimes that I would be so better off not being here. Maybe I just have a really good case of the holiday blues....YA THINK!