Wednesday 1yr 222

My head was thinking way too much last night. I think I fell asleep crying, thinking about the past 5 years and how my life has changed for the good and for the bad. The reason why I was upset was that I was trying to come up with 1 word. If I could only say one word to certain people before I died what would that word be? For some people I know the word would come very easy take Maureen for example. I would look at her and just say "Sister". To my parents I would say "Thank you". To Corrine, I would say "Believe". There was many other people that I did that with, but when it came to Pedro I was torn. I could not sum it up in one word, and I so wanted to. That made me think of all the time we had spent. There is still so much that I would love to share with him, and it hurts that he no longer wants to be in my life. I even tried to think of words that I know would of pissed him off, like "heretic", and "hypocrite", but I know I was only thinking those out of spite.