Friday 339

Was at the hospital most of the day with Marilyn. Right now I have this sinking feeling in the bottom of my stomache. They have not siad that it is cancer as of yet, but she will be meeting with a specialist on Wednesday of next week. They wanted to get her in sooner but most things are closed for the next few days for July 4th celebrations. I sure hope everything goes well. Right now I am trying to remain positive. Good Lord know we don't need anymore illness in this family.

Thursday 338

Slept very good for a change last night. I was not woken up by any pain at all. Thank you Lord for that.

We spent yesterday getting Matthews and Marissas picture done. They looked so cute. After that we went over to Jennys and Jerrys and spent the afternoon there in the pool and visiting. The twins are getting so big!

Thank you Lord for another day. Help me to be the best person I can today. Let me reach out to others and you do. Amen.

Its later at night now, and I just got back from Mikes and Marilyns. They found a lump in the right breast. We have to be at the hospital 8:30am tommorrow morning to have it ultrasounded! I pray that everything will be ok.

Wednesday 337

Something that I have found comforting lately is re-reading some of the Psalms. For the past few days I have been reading Psalm 27 over and over again.

The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom should I fear? The Lord is my life's refuge of whom should I be afraid? When evildoers come at me to devout my flesh, My foes and my enemies themselves stumble and fall. Though an army encamp against me, my heart will not fear; though war be wages upon me, even then will I trust. One thing I ask of the Lord; this I seek. To dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life.

Tuesday 336

I felt good most of the day yesterday. It only seemed I felt a bit weaker toward the end of the day which is to be expected. We took Matthew and Emily to the doctor and Emily was so cute. She thought that they were going to give me a shot and she promised she would hold my hand so I would feel better. When I told her we were going to her doctor and they were going to look into her nose to see why she is sniffling her little face went from happy to SCARED. I gave her the same promise she gave me and she said that made her feel MUCH better. Good thing is that she did not need a shot after all and got to pick out a toy suprise. OOOoooo LOL

Monday 335

Had a hard time falling asleep last night. I've been worried about my health and what they will find with this next series of bloodwork. I can't or I don't want to admit that I am as sick as they think I am. I just want to keep things as "normal" as possible. No one has questioned yet the change in my IM name on msn which I guess is a good thing. I wanted to call Pedro last night and tell him I was sorry for everything that I had ever done or said to upset him. I guess I wanted a friend to really lean. Well I guess in my heart if anything does happen to me I know that God had forgiven me and that is the only thing that matters to me.

Friday 332

Vacation! Current mood: content
I am ready for vacation. After work today I am off till July 5th. Yes I am doing my "happy dance" right now.

Thursday 331

ONLY 2 MORE DAYS!!!!!!!!

Wednesday 330

Yea!! Only 3 more days till VACATION! I am looking forward to seeing all the kids. It looks like some will be spending the nights here as there is not enough room in Mers place. Oh well :)

Tuesday 329

So glad that yesterday is over. I blew up at Claudia! She was so mean, not just to me but to the entire first shift. I did feel bad after it was over, I mean I could of handled it much better but I guess everything that she had done in the past few weeks was all bottled up inside me and it just popped. I do not feel like blogging about what happened now but maybe when I get home today from work. Wish me luck!

Monday 328

Well after this week I will be on vacation!!! Up and awake early this morning as I have to take Corrine and Morgan with me this morning. Drop Morgan off at day care and then Corrine and I off to work.

Thursday 324

Feeling a bit better this morning. I think I scared Mom yesterday. I called her on Tuesday when I started feeling ill and she asked me if I was going to work on Wednesday, I told I would as long as I was not feeling any worse. She then said that she wished I would stay home as she knows the pain I go through when I pass a stone. Well to make a long story a bit longer I stayed home and when I was feeling a bit better I called Mer and went over to her house and just layed low. Well Mom called work looking for me and when she did not find me there she called my home and when I did not pick up she got scared and called Mers and poof there I was. LOL

Picking up Corrine this morning as she thinks there is something more wrong with her car.

Wednesday 323

Now everyone repeat after me. I hate kidney stones! Passed another fragment yesterday and now I am completely sore. Who knows maybe I will be passing another part....Right now my back aches and it still hurts to pee. UGG :(

Tuesday 322

Strange dream last night. I drempt that Mark and I were at Lennys which was now a police station and we were comparing police records.

Got all the price changes done yesterday. We had over 654 of 1 certain little rubber bracelet! Today I have to take some time and put the wedding case back together. I also am alone all morning so I will be busy.

Monday 321

Tons of price changes due this morning, so I guess I will be very busy in jewelry. Bernie comes back today. It will be interesting to hear what she has to say about everything that happened last week. Just a few more weeks and I will be on vacation . :) I can hardly wait!

Sunday 320

I Love the new Dixie Chicks song!!!

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, Im not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But Im still waiting
Im through with doubt
Theres nothing left for me to figure out
Ive paid a price
And Ill keep paying
Im not ready to make nice
Im not ready to back down
Im still mad as hell and
I dont have time to go round and round and round
Its too late to make it right
I probably wouldnt if I could
Cause Im mad as hell
Cant bring myself to do what it is you think I should
I know you said
Cant you just get over it
It turned my whole world around
And I kind of like it
I made my bed and I sleep like a baby
With no regrets and I dont mind sayin?
Its a sad sad story when a mother will teach her
Daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger
And how in the world can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That theyd write me a letter
Sayin that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over
Im not ready to make nice
Im not ready to back down
Im still mad as hell and
I dont have time to go round and round and round
Its too late to make it right
I probably wouldnt if I could
Cause Im mad as hell
Cant bring myself to do what it is you think I should
Im not ready to make nice
Im not ready to back down
Im still mad as hell and
I dont have time to go round and round and round
Its too late to make it right
I probably wouldnt if I could
Cause Im mad as hell
Cant bring myself to do what it is you think I should
Forgive, sounds good
Forget, Im not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But Im still waiting

Thurrday 317

Have lots to keep me busy today. Tons of new stuff came in yesterday. I have the kids tonight, looks like we will be camping out! :)

Thursday 316

Matthew is so excited. Yesterday at school he realized that he had a loose tooth! He worked on it and worked on at when he got to grandma's house and on the way home he wanted to call me and tell me. They stopped by so he could show me. I think he was beaming ear to ear! That was something that he saw lots of other kids having his age but not him and he was wondering about it a couple of months ago. I told Matthew that we would have to switch our menu for tomorrow night and not have freash carrots like he wanted. His mom laughed and said well maybe it would help loosen it more>

Wednesday 315

Well I certainly hope that today goes much better than yesterday. It wasn't that yesterday was so bad, just the last hour at work. Miss Claudia who was supposed to be in at 2:45pm never showed up to me. I called MIC at 3:15 and they called her at home. Then her daughter came to the counter saying her mom said I would ring her up there. I said your Mom? She is not even here yet. Well apparently she had been there but she was "shopping" with a friend. I mean just because she did not want to come and get the phone from me and figure out what we were working on, I did not get my last break. I did not get to run my trash. Grant you I probably could of, but I did not think it was fair to Nancy who does not know how to run the Jewelry counter. Well enough of this rambling. I will just leave on this note. People need to take responsibility for their actions.

Tuesday 314

Up and awake this morning. I so wanted to call in sick this morning as it is 6-6-6!! Yikes!!! The mark of the beast. Hope that does not bring me any bad luck today.

Monday 313

Well the trip to Northport was long but it went ok. The only thing I could of asked for was my brother Mark to be a little quieter. He was a non-stop talker. I just wanted to get out the duct tape for awhile.
Bill did a very nice job on the memorial service for Aunt Betty. It was sort of funny the way Aunt Betty's and my life seem to sort of parallel. She loved to read as do I. We both love reading up on stars and black holes and the such. We both have a "weird" sense of humor. I kept it to myself about how I thought our lives were sort of parallel until the ride home when mom mentioned that she had been thinking the same thing.
This week at work is going to be rough. Bernie is on vacation and they cut hours again, so it looks like we are going to be crazy busy.

Friday 310

So tired this morning. I am so happy its Friday. We are leaving tommorrow morning at 5 for up north. Its going to be a short weekend with all that travling.

Thursday 309

Hopefully today will go better than yesterday did. I have a ton of stuff to do still but at least I think I will have someone there with me today so I willnot be alone in the fashions area.

Talked to Mom last night. It looks like we are all going to be meeting here at my house on Saturday at 5:00am to head up north for Aunt Bettys memorial service. Almost the entore family will be going.