Monday 335

Had a hard time falling asleep last night. I've been worried about my health and what they will find with this next series of bloodwork. I can't or I don't want to admit that I am as sick as they think I am. I just want to keep things as "normal" as possible. No one has questioned yet the change in my IM name on msn which I guess is a good thing. I wanted to call Pedro last night and tell him I was sorry for everything that I had ever done or said to upset him. I guess I wanted a friend to really lean. Well I guess in my heart if anything does happen to me I know that God had forgiven me and that is the only thing that matters to me.