Thursday 38

Once again another good night of sleep. I was in bed and sleeping by 10:oo pm. I never woke up till my alarm went of at 5:00 this morning. Hopefully I will have a long weekend this weekend also to get some more rest. I did request to have Monday off so keep your fingers crossed that I get it off.

Wednesday 37

I finally got some good night sleep last night. After babysitting the kids till 0pm, I came home and watched Big Brother and then fell sound asleep. I feel well rested this morning.

I talked to Mom last night. She is going to be starting chemo as soon as she recovers from this last surgery. Please keep her in your prayers.

Tuesday 36

Oh so very tired this morning. I don't know how in got in but apparently Mr. Covoo kitty found himself a little field mouse to have some fun with in the middle of the night last night. I was awaken about 1 am. with this horrible squeeking noise. I flipped on the bedroom light and there he is with a mouse between his front paws. I of course screamed..(What else is a girl to do?) and that frightened Covoo so he lost his grip on the mouse. For the next few hours he was running around trying to get it again. He finally caught it around 4:30 this morning and I then grabbed it and tried to flush it down the toilet.....guess what? It did not work!!! Then had to go fishing around in the toilet to get him out and then threw it outside. Right now it all sounds a bit comical but then I was TERRIFIED!!!

Monday 35

Had a hard time trying to fall asleep last night. I think I took too long of a nap in the afternoon. I had over a 4 hour nap!

Well it is back to work for me today. No more vacations until after Christmas. I sure hope that time flies by fast.

Looks like Mom will be starting her chemo in a few weeks. Yuck :(

Friday 32

Its has been awhile since I have posted anything. I have been on a small vacation. I took off on Saturday and spent a few days in Indiana with my brother and his family. On Monday I did absolutely nothing! Tuesday I did something for the first time in my life...I went fishing! We had a blast. The only thing that was a bit disgusting was trying to bait the hook with the worms. Anyone who knows me knows that I am a "girly girl" and that part made me a bit squeamish. Wednesday we went out and shopped for everything that we needed to make Mom and Dad a Turkey dinner to take home with them after Moms surgery on Thursday. Thursday I spent most of the day making the turkey dinner and babysitting moms dog while they were at the hospital. I have no plans at all for today. I think it might have to be another do nothing day :) . Good Lord knows I need it.

Moms surgery went very well. They think they got all the cancer out this time. Now they have to wait for a few more reports from the doctors and then they will start the chemo.

I got a letter in the mail on Tuesday from Anna Aben. She is my director of singing at church. She is retiring on Oct. 1st. :( I had to go in last night for practice and she and I talked for almost 2 hours. She is going to be sorely missed. She did invite me to come up and visit her up north. I thought that was really sweet. She has made such a difference in the church and in my life. She has taught me to be more creative in my musical ability and she is also the one that encouraged me to start singing as a cantor and then to start branching out on my own and soloing for weddings and the such. Speaking for weddings. I found a piece of music that I am going to surprise my sister with at her wedding in Sept. :) YEA!!!!

Friday 25

Not much sleep last night. Again too many things going through my head. I have to meet with Pam this morning and I am not looking forward to doing that. I think she has an idea of what we will be discussing...I will give ya 3 guesses Claudia. YUCK!!

Inventory on the other had went very well. I was $1,200 OVER!!!!! You can imagine my surprise.

Vacation starts today at 3:28!!

Thursday 24

I finally got some help yesterday getting ready for today's inventory. Dana called me and asked if I was ready and I told her no. She then sent Ericka from systems over to help me scan and to get like "upc" behind each other. By the end of the day I was ready. I can not tell you what a relief that is. The only thing I have left to do is maybe get out a few boxes of new product that came in just before I left. If I do not get those out that is no big deal as they can just get the details of each box off the computer.

Wednesday 23

Yesterday was a day that I would care NOT to relive. Apparently there are a couple of people in the fashion dept. that are really trying to make waves for me. Most of the time I can ride the waves out, but yesterday it felt like I was caught in the middle of a big tidal wave and I was drowning. Claudia has no idea the suffering she can inflict on people. My life is stressed out enough with mom having cancer I do not need any of her childish games. She refused to come to the Jewlery dept. Yesterday as I paged on the intercom using a wrong name. I paged her by her maiden name not her married name. She knew it was her I was trying to reach but she said until I paged her by the right name she would not answer it. I was so mad I could of spat nails. Not only was tht childish but she caused me to have overtime and now I will hear about that. On top of all this Privina is treating me like crap also. I am still trying to get ready for inventory which is tomorrow and she keeps telling me that I have to help out the fashions department more. Like I said I feel like I am drowning and there is no one there to rescue me.

Tuesday 22

Yesterday flew by so fast. I was the only one in the fashion area all day. On top of all that I am still trying to prepare for inventory.

On a brighter note, Andy got out of the hospital. He arm is still in need of some more reconstructive type surgery but at least he is now out of danger.

Monday 21

Drove down and vistited with Mom and Dad this weekend. Mom looks very tired, but in very good spirits. We did not talk about her cancer at all. I wanted to ask her some question about the chemo and stuff but the time never really presented itself good enough to do so. Dad did take my aside and ask me not to bring it up unless she did. The only thing that we talked about was to make sure that I was on vacation the day she was having more surgery so I could babysit their Irish Setter puppy. I told her not to worry about that because my boss already said that she was well prepared for my leaving for vacation.

One a different note. Miss Claudia comes back from vacation today.... :( Yea me :P I am not too sure how to handle her yet. Instead of trying to work with all of together as 1 team she does her darndest to break it down. On top of all this I have inventory in Jewelry this week.. LOVELY!!!!!

Friday 18

I am sure happy that today is Friday. This week has been one from hell, and I really do need to be able to sleep in tomorrow. I had such a hard time falling asleep last night. I even gave in and called Pedro around 11pm but then got chicken so I hung up. I really need someone to talk to...to help me sort out things.

Work yesterday was ok. I got a lot done that I wanted to do. I also had a long talk with Privina about how we can get Claudia to be a part of the fashion team instead of always trying to break it down. She told me that she had noticed that Claudia had a poor attitude and intends on dealing with it. Lets just hope that maybe this time someone actually follows through.

Thursday 17

It looks like they did not get all of moms cancer out in her last surgery. Mom called me at work yesterday in a "mild" panic looking for Marilyn and did I know where she was. I told her that Mer was probably at her inlaws being that the kids had zoo school this week. I asked her why she was looking for Mer and she then said that she needed Mer to watch her dog again while she went under the knife again. I was completely shocked. I guess mom was also. Apparently there is an area of small tissue in her right breast that is still showing cancer cells, so they are taking that area out. She then went on to say that now they are looking at chemo also. I just hope and pray that everything goes well. Mom is not as young as she lets on the believe and I know this stress is taking a toll on her.

Wednesday 16

Well one good thing about yesterday, Andy only had to have surgery on one of this arms. They are hoping the other one will heal properly and not need a bone graph from his pelvis. That is what they had to do to his left arm yesterday. OUCH! I still am not too sure if drinking was involved at all, but knowing my nephew I almost have to think it was. I know how he loves his beer. If that is the case then he is going to have a rough road ahead of him.

Tuesday 15

Well the whole family met last night. We had a lot of laughs and then things got a bit more serious discussing Mom and what treatments are available. All in all the prognosis looks very good all things considering.

The only person who was not there last night was Andy. Apparently according to Shelly he was coming home from Lowell late Sunday night when he crashed his motorcycle. He is in the hospital right now awaiting surgery on his arms as soon as he is more stable.
I swear if it wasn't for all the bad luck this family has been having as of late we would have no luck at all!

Monday 14

I am staying home today. Just so exhausted. Emotionally and phycially. Still worried about mom and everything that has happened. We are all getting together tonight as a family to discuss everything. More later.

Friday 11

I still feel like death warmed over but yes I am still going to work. I have so many price changes to finish up on. Yesterday was so busy that all I got was one 15 min. break. I am hoping that Shannon got at least one panel done. If she did that shows me that I can trust her with more responsibility with other tasks at the counter.

Mom goes to see her oncolgist this morning to find out how many treatments of radiation she is going to need.

Thursday 10

Well I have my new car....its a lot nicer than my old one...

My mom has cancer.......and I am scared for her.......

I have such a cold.....and I so don't want to work today.......

With all that said I have to buck up and make it in and do what needs to be done.

Wednesday 9

I am so tired right now. Did not sleep much at all. Mom called me last night...she has breast cancer. We were all so concerned about Marilyn that Mom did not tell us that she was also going in for a lumpectomy on Thursday of last week. She got the results back and it is cancer. She is going to meeting with the specialist on Friday to see when she starts the radiation treatments. Please keep her in your prayers.

One brighter note is that I am getting my new car today. It is great that I am going to have a reliable ways of transportation now.

Tuesday 8

Well it looks like I will have the car by tomorrow night. Mom and Dad have to come to town and they know thats the only day that the office is open till 7 pm so I can switch plates. It will be nice to have a newer car.

Yikes my dreams last night were horrible. First I dreampt that Matthew had cancer and was not expected to live. The whole family had gathered around him and we were all saying our last goodbyes and he was telling us not to cry because he was brave and wanted to go see Jesus. Then the very next dream was that Marilyn and Mark and I were all late for Shellys wedding! LOL